“He’s your Lord, you obey Him and He gives you all that you ask for,” they said. I was 7 and I believed them.
As a kid I was told of how there is no one more sincere than your parents and family in the entire world.
“We’ll always want your best,” they said. I was 8 and I believed them.
As a kid I was taught to get excellent grades and study hard.
“Good grades will make your life better someday,” they said. I was 9 and I believed them.
As a kid I was taught never to talk to strangers.
“Strangers will only use you. Stay away from them. They are dangerous people!” They exclaimed. I was 10 and I believed them.
As a kid I was taught never to let anyone touch me.
“It will ruin your entire life,” they said. I was 11 and I believed them.
As a kid I was taught never to go near drugs.
“Drugs are poison.” They told me. I was 12 and I believed them.
I was 16 when the questions started.
“Don’t talk back,” they said.
“Why do you always stay quiet?” They asked.
“Study hard,” they said.
“Why don’t you ever take your nose out of books?” They asked.
“Get out of your room and go outside.” They said.
“Why are you partying every weekend?” They asked.
Well how about, fuck you?
Talk to strangers, till you find your favourite one.
Do all sorts of drugs, till you find the right one.
Let people kiss you and touch you, till you start liking it.
Talk back as much as you like; lock yourself up in a room; do whatever the fuck you like.
Because people lie. People lie all the fucking time. And they always will.
The truth is, there was no God when I needed Him the most. I tried obeying Him and yet He never gave me what I asked for. And was anything but just. So of course, people lied about this one.
I saw dads rape their own daughters and brothers rape their own sisters. I never really trusted my own parents with what’s going on in my life because every time I did, they insulted all my life decisions and never once did they stand by my side. So what’s the whole point of their sincerity?
People fucking lie because there isn’t anything more enjoyable than flunking exams. There isn’t anything more pleasing than being abandoned by God; kicked out by family and not being able to think straight because the alcohol has finally gotten to your brain cells. There isn’t anything more satisfying than feeling your lips burn with ruthless kisses and a stranger’s hands all over you.
And at that one moment, you’ll realise, your entire life had been full of lies and liars.
-The truth I learnt after spending 24 years of a life full of lies.
Author’s note: I know this is a little blasphemous, so if this causes any offence to you, you may ignore it instead of throwing hate and arguments at me. Thank you.